My Worst Thoughts Revealed: Ventilation

I just don't understand, am I the only person who thinks that what you did was wrong? How could you sit there and tell me how much you like me and treat me this way? Why would you even ask me to open up and then be so cold? Thank you for reminding why I had decided that the life of solitude was what I wanted.

Well folks, there goes 8 months down the drain. Don't you just hate when you not only waste your time but your emotions on someone. All the times I skipped out on something to be with you. All the times I went out my way to come see you . I should have went with my intial feelings and ignored my other 'feelings'. As much as I don't wanna see you anymore--I know that I will see you again. Man I just need a resolution--how could a person be with you all the time and act so distant? That just doesn't make any darn sense and I can tell that you are pushing me away so I'll just take that and roll on. But thanks for reminding me--I had forgot what it feels like get hurt for real. Wow just glad it wasn't as bad as the first time.

Things like this happen and you know what it does? It makes you question yourself here are few that you might serious contemplate:

Q: Am I a bad person?
A: The answer is no [if you are anything like me]
Q: What did I do to make you act like this with me?
A: Truth is prolly nothing but he find some small irrelevent reason.
Q: Why is that my hoe-ish friends and relatives can be happy with someone but my kind-hearted self can't?
A: Just know that [1] it may not be your time [2] maybe the fellows that you want are not what you need. Not to mention that some people just don't know how to handle genuinely kind-hearted, intelligent, beautiful, independent black women.
Q: Did I do something to deserve this?
A: No, the actuality is that no one deserves to be treated bad.

So after your personal dialogue about the mistakes that you have made when making decisions concerning the relationship the two of you had, what do you do?

Move on and find gratifying, satisfaction in the knowledge that one day he will realize what he had in front of his face [and believe me he will]. Nothing more interesting to me than the fact that whenever you cut someone loose thats when they have an 'epiphany' and realize that damn I really had something good and she really cared for me.

I am already starting to feel that gratification. . . . . yes there it is! I am gonna find complete happiness in my surroundings and submerge myself into the environment. Literally I think I'm going to go for a nice swim :) that always relaxes me. Man I just wasted 8 months of time I could have been doing something more productive.