Truer Words

why is it that I love so hard? To the extreme that I can't seem to let go even if it is not in the best interest for me. I just gotta have him and I think that I am afraid to lose him. I try so hard to get him to loosen up the chains and confusion and let me in, but it seems like my efforts go in vain.
i wanna move on but its so hard to do. he got such a hold on me and i just don't wanna let go of the feelings. i ran from attachment and love for so long that it finally caught me by the ears. now my nose is wide open and the air is so thin. "what you want might make you cry and want you need may pass you by if you don't catch it." truer words were never spoken and despite women's intuition i let you get me. like you said--when you get into situations like that its not like you go in blind, you can't blame anyone but yourself cuz you already know.
But the longing for your comfort and the yearning I feel when your aren't around, only makes it tougher to give you up. "giving up is so hard to do, i tried but it just ain't no use." its like being stuck b/twn a rock and a hard place. and the only peace you seem to find is in serious meditation. through the frustration you can only take out time to remember how much you love you and that no matter what--you have to keep that alive. the minute you forget how important your feelings are is the minute your spirit dies and you are confined to a statutory state of mind.
"keep yo head up," despite the fact that things might make you feel like your chin should be at a vertical angle remember there is much to be happy about. like waking up another day, being able to hold a conversation with someone who truly loves you like a mother, father, sister or brother.
one day the person will figure out what they had staring them right in the face. all you can do is be you and if he can't figure it out soon enough then its his fault. when he looks back on what he let slip through he will feel the same pain that you felt and perhaps you will have someone new. someone who truly appreciates you for the things you say and the things you do. someone who won't confuse and try to lose you by playing silly games. a real man who truly adores you and the gift of love that you bring. it will not be a burden to carry but a blessing he'll surely keep with him at all times.